I also have always thought of the Moon as feminine in both my training and practice, but the older I get the more searching I become or may be just awkward

It is interesting to look at the way things change over time to become the perceived truth as we celebrate 4 seasons when Spring and Autumn were only added in the 16th and 17th centuries, before this it was either summer (May to October) or winter with the progress of the year controlled by the Moons cycle. Just as Lughnasadh is now a fixed day 31st July when it would make far more sense for it to be celebrated a couple of weeks later on the Harvest Moon, you see just plain awkward

that's me.
An ancient story goes: The Sun my Mother. If there is no Sun, then there will be nothing on earth, as if there is no Mother there will be no children! As the Sun and Mother have the same duties, they began calling the Sun "My Mother" this type of thread can be found in many ancient cultures linked to Sun Goddess sites in Britain, Ireland, Egypt, Korea, Siberia and there are even hidden clues to be found in the legend of Amaterasu, the Sun Goddess of Shinto the oldest religion of Japan.