I suppose this goes here.....
I was very upset last night.....
Like "possessed by horrible spirits" upset.....
Celled a friend to talk about an issue I'm having ongoing with people coming into my home while I'm gone.....
And me blaming my refusal to clean up anymore on the fact that one day a few years ago, I came home to ransacked house, and just succumbed and never tried again....
But someone WAS here yesterday while I was at court.....
I seemed very calm until I felt she was dismissing my need to talk to ask if she could talk to me tomorrow(today).....
I went bezerk, and blamed every loved one and friend for dismissing me....
Then on to god(christian), and all the inconsistencies, and all the I protection, and even the "made in his invisible image"...
And my friend is christian....
I could of just said, I really need to talk, and can you spare a few minutes....
Well she stayed on, quoting silly scriptures and not having any answers as to why the intruders into my home can rely on this god better than me...
And why this God won't protect me or let me know who is in here, or help me get moved, or keep my animals out of harm while I'm out or keep my car going, or even make me a better person.....
Well I woke up like I had a hangover today.....
Have stuff I haven even to do like get cars towed, get dog and cat food out of car first, an call court to make pay arrange....And my head is splitting....
Even have places to go with no car....
Oh hell no....
I tend to anger at the most benign people....
I want to retributed the enemies who are in not my best interest....
And am tired of trying to figure out who they are how many and what to do if I don't...
Oh hell no....